Tuesday, September 18, 2007

My Day to Whine

Meant to post sooner but it’s been one of those...challenging, yes, that’s the word, challenging...weeks.

Tried moving some of my daughter’s boxes from my “classroom” to the spare room and did something to my back. Now it hurts to sit or stand or walk. It will get better, of course, the more I move around. So I am. And gritting my teeth the whole time. But it does make it hard to concentrate or work on the computer. And speaking of computers...

My computer has been doing something weird all day so that it takes forever to do anything. I presume it’s updating or downloading or something in the background but it means everything takes forever. (And yes, I run anti-virus software and spy ware blockers and this is just something that happens every so often—usually before my computer decides on its own to shut down and restart due to updates so....)

Then there’s this camera thing.... I bought myself a camera. Great, you’ll say. And it is. Except...I find myself wondering why I didn’t buy myself one before or during my cross country trip when it would have been nice to take photos of places I had always dreamed of seeing. And I find myself reluctant to take it out and use it. I find myself realizing how intimidated I have let myself become by the fact that my ex-husband had his fancy camera that I was never allowed to use and a good friend and her husband both saw themselves as professional photographers so how could any pictures I took compete with that?

Funny how we can have old messages running in our heads that we don’t even realize are there!

Add to that some...interesting, yes, interesting...family dynamics this past week and you can perhaps see why I’m running so late posting to this blog.

All of this will get resolved. None of this is more than a temporary challenge. And once I get over my hesitancy about using the camera I know I’ll be delighted that I have it. It’s all just...a bit much today.

Well, time to get up and move around some more. Sending blessings and safe and gentle (((((((hugs))))))),
April_optimist

7 comments:

Enola said...

Did you know that next Thursday, the 27th is Pity Party Day? See here - http://enola-survivor.blogspot.com/2007/09/i-hereby-designate-national-pity-party.html - for more info. And please join in.

(((Hugs)))

jumpinginpuddles said...

lol pity party lmao too funny enola,
and we are sorry youve had such a shitty week we hope your back gets better really soon

keepers said...

sounds like a bad week! hope it all gets better really really quickly!!
the sore/bad back hurts the most we bet!been there done that, thank God for the yoga!

peace and blessings

keepers

motherwintermoon said...

Youch! I'm so sorry to hear about you back. (((Sending blessings of health and healing energy to you)))

Interesting what you wrote about the camera and how the old messages kept you from taking pictures you would have enjoyed.

Enjoy your new camera, taking all the pictures your heart desires!

The link below is for you today. For me, for all of us, who have felt unloved, unworthy, and irrelevant.

www.hasanyonetoldyou.com

Rising Rainbow said...

Sorry your back is bothering you. Hope you feel better soon.

I do have to laugh at Pity Party Day, it sounds like such fun.

April_optimist said...

Enola, LOL! I love the idea of Pity Party Day!

Thanks Jumping in Puddles, Keepers, and Rising Rainbow.

Motherwintermoon, Thanks for posting that. What a lovely video.

April_optimist said...

Enola, LOL! I love the idea of Pity Party Day!

Thanks Jumping in Puddles, Keepers, and Rising Rainbow.

Motherwintermoon, Thanks for posting that. What a lovely video.