Tuesday, December 09, 2008

10 Honest Things

Mile191 has been kind enough to give me an award. Thank you!

With this award I'm supposed to list 10 honest things about myself.

1) I'm a coward. It gets better all the time but my first reaction to something new is to be scared. I always have to take deep breaths and reset my thinking before I can do them. The good thing is that once I do them, I have more evidence that I can do things and I don't need to be scared.

2) I get impatient with my kids. I want my son (who has Down Syndrome) to realize that if he followed rules, his life would be easier. I wish he had all the freedom in the world to live the way he wants, but that is not his reality. I get impatient with my daughter when she goes in circles worrying about making absolutely sure she makes the right choice about anything. The irony is that I know this may be at least in part due to watching me do that as she grew up.

3) My house is nowhere near as neat as I'd like. It's far better than when I was married but it's not at the level I'd like it to be.

4) I love playing video games, especially games like Zelda.

5) I hate cold weather and ice and snow. I grew up in a cold climate and my ancestors are from cold climates but....I'd much rather have warmth.

6) Even though I have a lot of published books, there are times when I don't feel like a “real” writer. The one thing that helps is that most published writers I know also have those moments of self-doubt.

7) I hate confrontation. I suspect I always will.

8) My dog gets to sleep on my bed and I feel safer having her in the house.

9) I wish I could spend more time with my kids even though I know the greatest gift I can give them is the freedom to create their own lives.

10) I believe that deep within us is the courage and resilience we need to heal. I believe that by reaching for moments of joy in our lives, we nourish that courage and resilience and in accepting ourselves we have the best shot of becoming the people we want to be.

And now I'd like to pass the award on to:

Clinically Clueless
Jumping in Puddles

If, that is, you want to play. And I'm sure I'm forgetting people I really should add to this list.

Sending blessings and safe and gentle (((((((hugs))))))),



Clueless said...

I'll play and post tomorrow!! Thanks for sharing about you! CC

Colleen said...

Thank you for the award!! I will gladly play. And thanks for sharing yourself so openly!

Karma said...

Thank you!

Marj aka Thriver said...

I need to play this game as well. I think Mile 191 thinks I'm blowing her off.

I'm just behind on everything. Jeeeeeesh! Even I'm sick of hearing myself say that. ;P

I like your list. Hey, I like to play video games, too! Good thing I have an 11-year-old boy with lots of games I can borrow! hee hee!

Kahless said...

I am really struggling to do this. I will have a go later.

jumpinginpuddles said...

thankyou we ahve also blogged this and thanks for sharing yours

mile191 said...

you did an amazing write with these honest rules. it is hard. and it works something in you that is not comforatable. i appreciate you playing along. thanks. hope you are doing well.

By the way, I LOVE knowing more about you. I can relate to so many. thanks.

April_optimist said...

Clueless, I'll have to come see!

Colleen, You're welcome. I'll come see what you posted.

Karma, You're welcome.

Marj, LOL! Good thing I did mine when I did because things got a little hectic after that--as you can see by the gap between my posts!

Kahless, It can be all good things, if you wish--just things we don't yet know about you.

Jumping in Puddles, I'll come see!

mile 191, It was fun. Thanks for thinking of me.

Clueless said...

Hi April,

I finally posted the meme today.